Hard Week

I'm having a hard week. Many know from my previous blog "Tired", that I've been struggling with the Holiday Demons. Winter is SO NOT my cup of tea. I've been working hard all week just to paste a smile on my face. I hate feeling so lost, as my previous blog goes on and on about our financial stress which has discouraged me greatly, to say the least. I've been so depressed and sad that I haven't done any fitness, my eating has been not good. I haven't over eaten, which is a good thing, but because I've been so down, I've eaten very little this week, but it's been all the wrong foods and my water intake has been nil to zero... I still lost another pound, HOW, haven't got the foggiest clue, but I won't complain about that! Just lost my Mo-Jo this week. Hoping I can find it again soon...

I have a dear friend on Facebook. She is struggling with her want of loosing a few pounds and having to give up her current eating habits to do so. She wants to start taking a diet pill for a "quick fix". She says I inspire her because I'm looking so beautiful with my current weightloss, but she doesn't want to give up her "sweets" habit and "junk food" habit. She totally hates exercise and says she refuses to kill herself by working out. My advice to her is:

First, there is no such thing as a "quick fix" when loosing weight and being healthy. I've learned that the hard way myself. It'll work for the short term, but it won't change YOU. The one thing I'm learning with this process is: If you don't change your attitude about food, if you don't change your lifestyle and habits you'll only end up right back where you started. And if you aren't ready for any of the above; you will NOT loose weight and be healthy. But again, you have to WANT to do all 3 of those things first. Believe me, I've been battling the weight for over 16 years, Yo-Yo style. I'd loose and regain+, I'd loose again and regain++. Until I got to the point where I had to CHOOSE to CHANGE ME.

Now, I've gotten the lifestyle and eating habits figured out and I work hard every day (most days) to make the best, healthiest decisions for myself. If only I could get this depression and anxiety under control, in fact, make it go away completely, I'd be 100%.

I'm glad I've gotten to the point where I can "inspire" people. That was never my goal or intention. I just wanted to loose weight, look better, feel better about myself as well as in the mirror and I wanted to be healthy. But it makes me feel so good when someone tells me I've inspired them! What a great feeling that is to know I, ME- little ol' me, has helped someone better themselves, even if it is only for them to WANT to change, but haven't quite gotten there yet.

I seriously hope, my mood is better next week. With the actual Holidays upon me, I have got to dig deep and find my strength to stay positive and neglect the temptations that will surround me in the next few weeks. I'm not so much worried about the food part, as I am trying to be HAPPY. I know I have enough will and determination to ignore the foods I know will sabotage my success thus far, but I don't know if I'm strong enough yet, to keep the depression and anxiety from taking over. I am trying, trying as hard as I can to fight it. I just pray I win!